Limited time is like a huge silent monster that was created by ourselves. We lay down its starting point and end point. The clock starts running and the monster moves only an inch everyday and at the beginning it’s a hundred kilometers away. You know its there but its shadowy figure only sparks a small fear for the future. The fear too small for worry but big enough for a quick glance that is dismissed just as fast with the comforting thought that the shape in the distant has changed little or not at all. Its massive figure changes only so slightly as it comes closer and closer. The monster is than forgotten, the person looks all around him occupied with the world while instinctively avoiding the very sight of that distant monster. Finally when it eclipses the very sun do we realize, ‘Shit, I’ve run out of time.’ It than consumes us.
I’m leaving Malaysia in February, five months have passed and its stunning to me how fast time flies when I’m doing nothing. Well I didn’t do nothing but, I feel unaccomplished. I wish I had more time to practice my guitar, or to read more books. These are the things I wanted to do. I’ve gamed more than enough. In fact, I think I’ve been gaming a whole shit load too much.
Not only for single player but also Uncharted 2 multiplayer, Modern warfare 2, Team Fortress 2, not to mention the time wasted on Company of Heroes skirmishes (over 100 hours) and finally all that time spent in cyber cafes playing left4dead, Modern warfare one, or Starcraft. God only knows how many hours were spent, I'm sure he would raise an eyebrow if he knew.
As I said before, I’ve gamed a shit load.
Do I regret it? No, I don’t. I just wish that I had more time. Which ironically is a waste of time, that is to ponder upon the time wasted when pondering in itself is already wasting time. Actually, by writing this I’ve wasted time. In fact, if I didn’t start this silly blog I would’ve saved some time to be used in a more productive activity like picking my nose or eating fried ground nuts.
I have a month, and going on holiday for two weeks doesn’t help. So my top priority once I come back from Egypt is to get fit. I also need to practice my guitar and learn how to cook. Actually, once I get there will I be able to play? I’ll find a way I guess.
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