Games. I need more! MORE!

I’ve been splurging on games recently, most of them for my console the PS3. Yeah my PS3 slim, its quiet, doesn’t overheat even after almost ten hours of continuous play. Did I mention my PS3? It’s free to play online and it can play Blu-ray. What you don’t have a PS3? Pity…pity.

The RM20 on my bank account that was once filled with more than RM3000 had me thinking, ‘My God, how much have I bought?’ and this got me thinking further. How many original games do I have?

Lets make a tally, shall we:

PC

1. Medal of Honor: Allied Assault.
2. Counter Strike: Source
3. Team Fortress 2
4. Half-life 2 including episode two and three
5. Portal
6. Guild Wars
7. World Of Warcraft
8. Warhammer Online: Age of Reckoning
9. Titan Quest
10. Crysis
11. Left 4 Dead
12. Garry’s Mod
13. Company of Heroes all three (one of which was a gift)
14. Oblivion
15. Dawn of War all three: Dark Crusade, Winter Assault and the Original (cant remember what’s it called)
16. Starwars: Battlefront
17. Torchlight
18. Street Fighter 4

PS3

1. InFamous
2. Ratchet and Clank: Tools of Destruction
3. Metal Gear Solid 4
4. Valkyria Chronicles
5. Uncharted 2
6. Killzone 2
7. Demon’s Soul
8. Fat Princess

When it’s all laid out… it doesn’t look too impressive. What would be long and hard to remember would be listing every game I finished! Alas, most of them are pirated (I have repented and now buy originals only) and my memory can only remember the awesome.

By the way, Uncharted 2 is by far the best game I’ve played. If there was a game award for: “Game of the Decade” I would vote for Uncharted 2 while screaming, ‘DRAAAAKE!’

My bank is broke but once I get some cash I’m going to be buying some more games to complete my wish list:

Dragon Age Origins

Ratchet and Clank: A Crack in Time

Grand Theft Auto 4

Little Big Planet

Batman: Arkham Asylum

Burnout Paradise

Maybe: Modern Warfare 2

Sooner or later I will buy all these games!!

Now I’m off to play the masochistically gratifying game that is Demon’s Soul. By the way, I’ll be playing that on my PS3. Did I mention that? It only does Everything.

The right to be Arrogant.

Yesterday I got a letter (e-mail) from University of Western Australia my application has been accepted; UWA is one of my ‘just-incase’ choices. As I read the letter, it finally dawned upon me that I am moving forward. Soon, I will be undertaking my bachelor’s degree, now if we follow the generic thinking of society I would almost immediately after graduating get a job. This is all in the assumption that the world is not in some huge depressing recession, a meteor hasn’t started the second ice age, world war three hasn’t occurred and I am still able to function adequately with my balls in place.

After getting a job either in foreign soil or back home and establishing a career I would most likely would want to start a family, grow old, die happy from cancer, bla bla bla. No. At my age I don’t give a fuck about a family, and for me I don’t give a fuck about relationships right now. Being nineteen has some perks, for one I have the right to be arrogant. I can push people aside and bellow, ‘Step aside, Irfan is here!’

I think being arrogant while your young and ignorant is a good thing. At this point of our life, sometimes younger, sometimes a little older, we create dreams. I’m not talking about those little dreams like getting laid before the year-end or getting that PS3 for Christmas. Big dreams, like conquering the world, owning a franchise that is valued in the billions, going back in time just to tell Hitler he’s a faggot, deflecting a comet with your bare hands, you know, big dreams.

The way I see it is if you cant dream big now, than when? Working at Coffee Bean has allowed me to witness how the bottom feeders think; they have no big aspirations other than a promotion or time off. There is no drive, no fire, and no dream. When I first spoke out of my interest to learn Japanese, my friends thought, “Yeah, it was going to happen sooner or later.”

But my co-workers they questioned. Why? Are you going to study there? You don’t need it at Australia so why? Vexed me as fuck, I answered, ‘For fun.’ And they gave me that stupid look of, why would you do if it wouldn’t benefit you money wise in the future.

They don’t understand. At my age it isn’t about money it isn’t about the future, it is about now. My point is that, life isn’t about that career, money, the future family we want, all those are way too serious to think about. At my age, life is about doing things we want just cause we can. Like learning the guitar, doing martial arts, going for baking classes, only God knows how useful these would be in a suit-choking career in some office stuck in a cubicle.

My co-workers most of them we’re adults, maybe that’s why they think I’m silly to do things which most likely wont help my ‘future career’. Sometimes when people my age talk about marriage and shit like that I go, ‘Dude what? Guys our age should be thinking about getting laid not married!’ (That’s a quote from family guy).

Final note, the reason why I got a sudden initiative to learn Japanese is because Maaya Sakamoto is the voice actor for the character Lightning in the upcoming game Final Fantasy 13. I love her work and I want to do it just ‘cause I can.

Having this much free time must be a crime.

Time.

Time. It progresses in a consistent manner – second by second. Nothing in this world can slow it down or, speed it up. We are at the mercy of this indifferent force of nature. Despite its robotic nature, time is perceived in many different ways. A thousand years is nothing to our blinding Sun. When in great pain thirty seconds feel longer than it is.

Time has this dirty trick of creeping up on people, me in particular. Its already October, I’ve been out of college for four months and yet, it feels like only yesterday I was walking into its gates for the first time. It feels like only yesterday, I was experiencing my first day of school in Primary School, or the day where I pushed that bully into a storm drain (don’t worry he lives) or the bus ride back home after winning the Kawad competition, or the first time I met my younger sister right after she was born. All these significant days, feel like yesterday. They aren’t all good days, but most are. I’ve been fortunate enough to be born without a rusty spoon in my mouth, although not silver, it is still fortunate.

I’m nineteen today. When a birthday arrives its hard not to think of two things: one, is this what I wanted to be last year. Two, what will change next year. Many things have changed, and when I think about it I wonder how these changes took place. As a child, I was meek. Today, I’m not meek anymore. In fact, I now hate the meek. They are just so meek.

I could go on rambling about the things that I should have done in the past or worst, ramble about the things I will do. No, that would be boring and self-indulgent instead, this post ends here.

My next project is called gaming fasting. I will try to not play video games in any form for as long as I can.

By the light of the MOOOOOOOOOOON! POOF!

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